Children in general change a family but children with special needs tend to have a greater impact due to the many challenges that can arise.
My life has been changed dramatically since I received the diagnosis that my son had cerebral palsy (13 years ago), I can’t quite form into words how much I’ve changed as a mother and as a human being in general. Yet, I’ll try to express it.
I used to party like there was no tomorrow. Before I had my CJ, I was seriously self absorbed. Even before CJ though, I had 1 son. I hadn’t even had my taught yet. My oldest son has no special needs. His only need back then was that he needed his mom around more often. He’s a grown man now but back then he was often pawned off on my sister so I could go out to party or hang out with my boyfriend of the moment.
I’m not proud of who I used to be but in leaving the past behind, I’m slowly becoming satisfied with whom I’ve become.
Cerebral Palsy and Jesus
While I can say my life has truly changed, I must first give credit to Jesus Christ. Had he not rescued me from my sin and myself, I’d probably still be out doing my own thing…even with a special needs child at home.
After my salvation, I still had tendencies to be selfish. Then, along comes this beautiful baby boy. He looked perfectly normal. Little did I know that he’d have a number of health issues down the line.
While times have not always been easy for our family, I know that with God all things are possible to the one who believes and trusts in Him. Cerebral palsy does not define our lives.
What Cerebral Palsy Has Taught Me
Having a child with physical and health challenges has taught me some wonderful things:
- How to pray
- How to be patient
- How to trust God
- How to love beyond myself
- How wonderful it is to have someone look up to you and call you “ma” and not want anything more than your attention.