2016 has not been very kind to my family.
So much has happened this year – curve ball after curve ball (a great analogy for you baseball fans).
There was very few days this year when I was actually happy.
The rest of the time, my life was filled with illnesses, surgery, financial woes and marital problems. Sometimes I felt as if I would break.
When I was really down in the dumps and confided in my mom, she would say that I was stronger than I thought and that God was giving me grace to go through.
While mom was probably right, it didn’t help much while I was going through one crises after another.
CJ had 6 surgeries to deal with kidney stones, including 3 hospital admissions and 3 ER visits. The seizure activity increased to the point where he was having upwards of 15 seizures per day.
Our apartment began falling apart. Then, we had a terrible insect infestation to deal with that led to us racking up about $3,000 of additional debt. Now, we are under the strain of needing to find a new apartment before our lease is up in less than three months or we’ll be stuck for another year. That’s not an option for us in a building that is neither handicap accessible or in good condition.
Financial strain was birthed.
My husband and I began to fight a lot and our marriage was put under a lot of pressure. A few times I was convinced I would divorce him.
After everything that’s happened this past year, I’m still standing and my family is still together. Our problems are not nearly over but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t you just hate clichés?
CJ has another surgery coming to blast the stones but he’s not been in any pain. He’s also on a medical marijuana trial and the seizures are down 98%.
We have obtained free assistance (thanks to my employer) to help us find a new apartment.
I’m no longer pre-diabetic, have lost 35 lbs and am off the thyroid medication.
By God’s grace, my husband and I are about to start marriage counseling and have begun the process of healing our marriage and improving our communication. I realized that I did not want to walk this walk of life without him. We’ve both made mistakes but with God’s grace we are rebuilding our faith and trust in each other.
When you are experiencing trials on every side, you may not readily be able to see God’s hand helping you. Yet, He’s promised to never leave us nor forsake us (Deuteronomy 31:8). In the midst of the curve balls that life throws, God gives you moments of clarity. “You won’t be dizzy always. That’s what comes to mind even as I type this post.
Here’s to brighter days (another cliché I know but at least it’s filled with hope).